Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Confident enough to face today's chemistry paper... I studied since 7.30 this morning in school until the very last moment in canteen... The paper is so damn difficult and i can't even understand a shit... Mole concept i have practicing it wit grams butthis comes out in TONNES!!!
Can u ever believe it???!!!
So Pissed!!! Ms Hasina also have some hope for me to get at least a C5 but at this rate C6 also quite impposible... Felt so sad and depressed... She have faith in me but i did so badly... It is like a long sharp spear pierce into my heart... My simple requests is to pass all my General Paper including Science and Maths... Everything is like so wrong!!! What happened???
I asked my Angel Carmen again and again her words of wisdom says this:
dont cry luh, you just have to know that you did your best, thats it.
crying wont change a thing.
neither will it make the paper easier.
whatever you learnt is worth it..
cause you try.
just relax.
you did your best
you tried your best already lorhs..I thought talking to her will work this time will work but the pain that i feel cannot be describe by words... Not saying that she is not good in helping me with this problem. She done her best but the sorrow is so pain because i work so hard for the God Damn Chemistry and it turn out as ZERO!!!THE PAIN I FEEL ,IS JUST LIKE BEING PEELED. WHAT I KNEW DID NOT PAY THE BILL.LIKE A THRILL,CAN'T ESCAPE FROM THE WILL.
Fight on 3:54 AM
