Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Today same old routine.... When to school and play a fool and talk to the stall 8 canteen vendor----Ah Ming's place---
Waited for hong ni to come and study while waiting for renuka but aiya so sianz
Hong Ni sms say she will come after she have found all her notes for other subjects den i was like SIANZ!!!!!
When to bugis and buy present for Carmen my angel!!!!
Den thought of buying for Jazreel too but same problem!!!!
No money le.... Den when to shops to buy a pendant and a necklace chain....
Den kena scam by the auntie....She instead of giving me a longer want she gave me a shorer wan
WAWAWAWA.... Pei Auntie Pian Qian!!!!
Reach home around 5 plus den when to my blog and see sucker(s) spaming my blog with lots of freakin nonsense.... Freaking du Lan den when to put private for my blog...Haha...Come and spam again lar fucking bitch thing u smart u can do all this shit??? Think abt it men!!! Useless and kiasu fucing ill bred daughter of the bitch
Nothing else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Fight on 5:54 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
Reach school around 7.05am... Getting ready for the English O level and stress begin again...
Sat at the same table as Dewi and started to remember the letter writing format...So many to remember until my ass is hot...Brain started to clog up and cannot study at all...
In the end the English paper 1 was quite ok done but i wrote 600 plus words which exceed the original of 500...Paper 2 was much more easier but the summary sucks...So little resource and have to find 15 content points..... Aiyo
Maths paper 1 was like same and as usual.... 25 question, dunno 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sure fail liao....Everything is so boring and perhaps life is very meaningless....Should i end it???
Angel Carmen will sure screw my ass if she see this post...
人生跟本 活在世上毫无意识生命本来是一场连续剧迟早大结局一定会上映早知如此何必当初若知道会有这样下场为何要活到现在才领悟呢? 难道是上天赐给我的人生吗?爱情能让你从获新生,从过简单生活爱情也能让你碎尸万段,永不超生路是人走出来的天无绝人之路下一步怎样走,自己必须做出 选错了路还是必须继续走下去逃避不是解决问题方法 勇敢面对吧!!!爱死你了!!!我的宝贝天使!!!
Fight on 5:59 AM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Today is my Dad's birthday and his frens came to celebrate with us....
My Ex-Stead's family which was also one of the family that was invited also arrived...
She see me also never talk to me de... Sad!!
Den this cute Chinese Waiter serve our private room and was also enjoying with us as everybody is so high and he also high with us lor.... Out of the blue i shoot serene a Maths question and she can't answer it... So glad!!!
This Waiter den also add in to the fun and gave me this thinking question that make me so into it....I work my brain out and still can't solve.... He say think out of the box and u can find the answer...
I tried but maybe not enough ba.... SOB SOB!!!
Den a sudden news struck me really hard yesterday....
After hearing that i was like
WHY ME?? WHY NOW?? IS IT REAL?? GOD U R PLAYING WITH MY LIFE!!!!!!!!
This thoughts were arousing me since yesterday and now too...
As no 1 can accept abt this fact!!!
No one can!!!
TOLD LYIDA ABOUT THIS SITUTATION!!!!!
HER REACTION IS OMG!!!
Not the answer i wan from anybody!!!!
I feel no warmth in this answer....
To me it is like coming to the end while ther other herds of living thing abandon my feeling...
I did not get wat hope for!!!
And lastly i guess i have no chance to explain
Fight on 8:17 AM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Today morning rained heavily and the cold is unbearable... Actually to meet my frens at 10Am in the morning but i actually reach BM mac at 8am.... Lolz.... The shop is so empty and only 3 customer including me was in....
Started studying around 8.10am with a cup of hot tea.... Almost finish the whole trigonometry chapter den i finally see a familiar soul that suppose to meet me at 10am but she arrive at 10.36am... Haiya... Worst come to worst morning still see angie!!!! What a bad day men!!!!
Then Ryan came like 5 minutes later den Hong Ni!!!
Den studied like idiots lor... Mirically a 4E2 student ask me Maths wor....And so glad i can answer her...
Again today life is so pathetic and nothing really interest me...
Other den talking with Ryan about the past and especially some talks on GALS....
He said that gals have to be right all the time and i really agreed with that...
They probably should really think of wat guys really need and they should understand us...
Not trying to be Sex-cist but it is the fact... Maybe ppl say that letting gals to win is part and parcel of boys' life but some gals really take this for granted and abuses it...
I can be counted of 1 for one of the victim...Gals that i met never really know me at all...
Looking for someone that could understand me is like finding a needle in a big ocean...
Perhaps cannot be found at all...Maybe i am on the surface while she is at the sea bed...Maybe the other way round i dunno....
There is really a lot of misunderstanding in between us....(U should know that it is u!)(she)
I hope that we can really sit down 1 day and talk about this... I hope to cherish this friendship as to me every friendship means that we are fated as frens in this life time...
Dun kill it please!!! Ps=If u think i am saying about u, den i will hope u can stop avoiding me..
I am a human being not a beast or what u think i am... I am not what u see and feel...
There is more of me u should know... Dun let this first impression kill me infront of u...
Little bit unfair me!!! Please understand me!!!! I wan this friendship!!! I really do, Pat!!!
Other den all this little thoughts Ryan den started think dirty and ask if i and my stead got do "audio" a not??? I told him YEAH!!!! Why not???
He was shock and ask him wat abt u and Candice??? He said HOT!!!
"Any trebble and bass???" i ask him
He say she have all the highest contrast and quality....Haha
After this still bored and continue to do Maths!!! Aiya!!!! No Life De!!!
Reach home about 7pm and bathe lor... Den surf the net and check on ppls' blog and especially URS!!! U still have not link me???
Dunno why suddenly feel so emo!!! SADSADSADSADSADSADSADSADSADSADSAD!!!!!!!!!!
没有你的日子仿佛天空漆黑一片
难道 给我一次解释的机会都没有吗?
你忍心看我在人群中横冲直撞吗?
难道你重来都没有感觉到我的存在吗?
Fight on 6:56 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
Today nothing special or fun happen leh.... Walk around and play a fool, disturb teachers and also make lots of noise haha.... Same old routine, when to school and study and also ask for consultation lor.... Early morning saw Ms Norlinda... She ask me how is it den i just say i miss out some factors lor....At that time she is like huh!!!!
Cross my fingers and hope i will pass!!!!
Around 11am i Mannan, Tsubat, Rafi and Arion when into commerce room to study... Actually not study lor... Arion play handphone games while me and Mannan take an hour long nap... haha
Only person studying was Jun Wei... He was stuck with a Maths question and miricaly i solve it for him...So proud of myself at that time.... WAKAKAZ!!!!
Den Mannan gave a very tricky maths question that set me into confusions...
And again miricale does happen.... I solve it!!! WAKAKAZ!!!
So proud and held my head high in front of Jun Wei....
A 4E4 student can think better den a 4E3 student... HAHA
Den walk out of the school around 1pm like tat... Intend to go to HQ and play but Wa Lao Eh...
BMSS territory... Den three of us just stand there like idiot....
Before leaving the school gate we put a piece of paper with 2 words on Mr Darren Chong's car wind screen "HAPPY HOLIDAY"...He is so lucky as his car is ful of female teachers and he himself the only male teacher!!! HAHA... Intend to do car block activity but was too lazy...
Reach home around 4pm like tat den do nothing... Play a few rounds of DotA den eat dinner...
Today so no life lor... Pathetic and sianz!!! Prepared for tml... More studying sessions with smart asses.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Fight on 4:56 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Today Geography paper not that difficult...But before taking the paper, stress arousing me from every corner... Talk to Ms Norlinda and ask her this question which brought me more stress...:"Now Drop Humanities can a not???"... She say:" Can!! No problem. It is beter tat u drop then u have a bad grade in ur cert for ur life." The stubborn me still refuse to give up and tell her i can de but she still insist of calling me to drop... Fed up!!!! Den MDC (Mr Darren Chong)
Came and Ms Norlinda told him abt the situation i had... MDC den called me to the office and have a 15min GrandFather story with me...SIANZ SIANZ!!!
It was 10.15am then i say:"I give u an answer by 12 noon" He said ok...
So for the past 2 hour plus i studied like an idiot... Frens call me i also never reply...
Den MDC came out at 1pm when i was just trying to take a nap...
"So wan to drop???","NO!!!, I will take it!!!"
Stubborn bone MDC tested me on the spot...Miricaly i manage to answer most of the question he ask.... HAHA!!! I am smart... WAKAKAZ
He den give in den walk away le...
Den my good foreign brother rafi answer Tsubat's question:
"What does LRT stand for?"
"Light Rapid Transit"I said.
"Den MRT??"
Guess wat rafi said???
"MONO RAIL TRAIN!!!"
I was laughing like hell when he said that... Haha...
Going around my blog and look for interesting thing and spotted LYDIA TAN XIAO XIAN
Spam my tag board...
LINK U LE LAR AUNTIE.... LINK ME ALSO CAN???
Actually wrote a song about lydia...
Show u guys a part of it:
我知道你爱小熊和小丑看到小熊手不放看到小丑永不忘喜欢你娇小玲珑可爱的笑舍不得让你从我手中流去我不能,没有你给我一次机会来证明我自己
_ _ _ _ _Last few word cannot say haha!!! Guess lor Lydia tan
Fight on 5:44 AM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Confident enough to face today's chemistry paper... I studied since 7.30 this morning in school until the very last moment in canteen... The paper is so damn difficult and i can't even understand a shit... Mole concept i have practicing it wit grams butthis comes out in TONNES!!!
Can u ever believe it???!!!
So Pissed!!! Ms Hasina also have some hope for me to get at least a C5 but at this rate C6 also quite impposible... Felt so sad and depressed... She have faith in me but i did so badly... It is like a long sharp spear pierce into my heart... My simple requests is to pass all my General Paper including Science and Maths... Everything is like so wrong!!! What happened???
I asked my Angel Carmen again and again her words of wisdom says this:
dont cry luh, you just have to know that you did your best, thats it.
crying wont change a thing.
neither will it make the paper easier.
whatever you learnt is worth it..
cause you try.
just relax.
you did your best
you tried your best already lorhs..I thought talking to her will work this time will work but the pain that i feel cannot be describe by words... Not saying that she is not good in helping me with this problem. She done her best but the sorrow is so pain because i work so hard for the God Damn Chemistry and it turn out as ZERO!!!THE PAIN I FEEL ,IS JUST LIKE BEING PEELED. WHAT I KNEW DID NOT PAY THE BILL.LIKE A THRILL,CAN'T ESCAPE FROM THE WILL.
Fight on 3:54 AM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
So damn sianz today... Intend to go to school and have consultation with Mr Darren Chong but dunno which sua ku so kia su book him like for the whole week... Damn irritated... So good le why not give ppl a chance?? Cannot stand this kind of sua ku ppl.... __
"Why would i sms u?" U did dumb ass!!! U think u r good in studies??? well u r good but perhaps all the studying makes u little short term in ur memory...Perhaps u need a better quality 'hardisk' instead of a loaded one...
Prank calls everywhere!!! Irritated!!!
Same thing as usual my angel Carmen gave me words of wisdom... Haha
c'mon.. like that also angry..
people got nothing to do mahs..
dont care them lorsh..by: Carmen (Angel)
Well after seeing this, "HAHA!!!"
Tats all... Shit kiasu butch
Yesterday was 4th lunch time concert of 2007
Call Sheryl help me Choop seat she did a good job but lose to the grand arrival of Mrs Goh
THATS MY SEAT FOR UR INFORMATION VP!!!
Carmen was so pissed of when Mrs Ong said that she is out of tune...
She intend to draw out from the performance but i am her Angel this time...
I gave her my comments she take it and i make her laugh, she enjoyed and lastly, the little gal is back on her feet after my WORDS OF WISDOM!!!
LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ LOLZ
The whole show i was the bouncer...But a really weird bouncer... Instead of keeping ppl out i have to keep ppl in!!! HAHA.... WHY??? Cause there is no ppl lar!!!
Then took some photos with Carmen and TATA!!!
Fight on 4:40 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Yesterday was really scary...We went to celebrate jimmy's birthday at cuppage plaza...Food is no bad lar actually..."MAI HIAM A SAI, AI HIAM KANA SAI"
Started out is easy... I drank 2 cups of tiger beer... Den Poh Seng and Cassandra arrive...They can't drink...I help them so... Haiya...
Same thing appear when Fiona, Felicia, Wei Li and John... Thay are my juniors i cannot afford to get them into such a big messs... With no avail i help them all to drink it.... Almost get killed....
Half way through ppl came to me and "CHEERS", no choice.... With respect i have to finish the cup of drink....
Den Walter "TA" with me a glass of red wine...1 mouth 1 cup...
I manage but he didn't... Hehe... Den met new working frens...
Cat and Kai Feng... dun really get to know cat cause really drunk...
Kai Feng was quite friendly... Haha
Den foolish things happen and i dunno why and dunno how i put my hand over her...
This surely leaves her bad impression of me.... SOB SOB!!!!
Around 11pm Felicia help me, the druniken sailor, to fetch a cabby... Reach home around 12 plus and parents were nagging like fuck men...Horrible
wakeup today morning and still having a aftershock of the beer...
29 cup.!>< hard sia!!!
But i am glad i did not fail as a senior to protext my juniors!!!
Proud of me MR TSE!!!???
Fight on 7:46 AM
Friday, October 19, 2007
My stuid computer is finally ready le.... Now can blog le... miss so many days of blogging so sad... sob sob...
Last few weeks were really depress as many things have happen...Cant really face all of them....
At least the first misunderstanding is cleared, now left with the more tough situation...
I was so freaking depress and don't know wat to do...I called Tessa (Sis) on the phone but she seems to be somewhere else not listening...Finding so many ppl to talk to is either not free or never pick up.. so drama...Who knows thay had plan it...
Then i sms my angel, Carmen. She enlighten my whole night with just a phase...
Don't waste time on how ppl think of u, just carry on. Though it is just a few words but it really deal a great impact on me... Therefore that day and the following day was the best for me... I tried wat she told me to do and it really works...I love u angel....Muacks...
you are the ocean,I am the fish.Without you i cannot survive.I am the green plant,you are the galant sunlight.Without you i don't know what i am now.Thanks you so much....MUACKS
Fight on 5:41 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
When to school this morning trying to get Mr Alan Chng to help me on chemistry but callede him 3 times he did not come out... Probably my voice is weak...LOLZ...!!! I Studied there outside the staffroom until 9am when i saw the gal tat accused me wrongly infront of me... I felt so stress as she keep on give me the *Shoo* eyesight that really annoy me... Can't study with the sight of her, i so called escape when she is in the pigeon hole room...Thinking tat it is better for me to leave there better den both parties feel awkward upon having eye contact...
Reach BM mac like 9.10am and sat at a table for 2..."miricaly" i saw xiao hui(WA LAO) there... Trying to avoid her but spotted by agnes....Haiya... After a while she came and disturb me while i am concentrating on my chemistry... When to Hq and played computer games at 12pm... So glad that i have studied 3hr 44min... haha!!!... Again played with some noobs there like Sing Wai, Huai Le and others...
7pm receive phone call from Ye Lin saying that zhao feng met car accident... Rushed to SGH to see is that punny little annoying pest ok a not but it turn out to be very bad... Right knee broke; Right ankle dislocated; left shin into half....When we (Frens of Zhao Feng) were there, he was just pushed into the ward unconcious... The Doctor den talk to his parents and den the mother broke into tears... Well he got into a Coma... We were all shock upon hearing tat news and started to worried... Next Ye Lin (Zhao Feng's stead) and Kendrix shed their tears...The other gals comforted Ye Lin while Kendrix cried on my shoulder... We were all anxious for him, afraid that he won't wake up... He make such a perfect Guard in BBall... Losing his talent in it will really shock him when he is awake....
Zhao Feng hope u will recover really soon... You still owe me a 1 on 1 match...
3 more balls, i won't let u win!!!!!
{}{}{} Grant me the power to have better life {}{}{}
{}{} Grant Zhao Feng to have the power to recover {}{}
Fight on 6:43 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
My life is filled with downpours everyday...Sun not shining; cloud not flocking; Moon not glamouring...Thought tat the downs are gone and it is rising to a normal life soon but 2 big issuse tat appear had affected my life... One is by misunderstanding (Very sure that i never tell her tat)...The other 1 is being played by 2 ppl and yet not know till very now(10/10/07--7.16pm)..
didn't know that i was like tat in their eyes...I never have 1 person tat really know me...Thought i found 1 but it backed fired right in my ass...Now it seems like everything is on me...Cant take it anymore longer...
Thought that the misunderstanding is over but yet devil of the heart still remain...Maybe what i have done have given wrong ideas to everyone...No wonder everyone in that group loses their gravity on me...Still trying to be thick skin enough to get 1 of them out to really clear the barrier but it seems more like a situation of worsening everything up...
I am not perfect no one is...Chances to explain myself??? I guess is a NO!!
Maybe i am to obessed of my reputation...If there is a choice of my everything and for their gravity i will choose their gravity...Without it now i am floating around...Unable to find a place to land safely...
For what i have done and given off useless ideas, i apologize for it right here...
I hope that chances can be given to evryone??
But i dun think i need it right here righ now...
Because i hope to find something to puke out what i have in me...
THE TRUTH IS HERE!!!!!
7.30pm--(A+1)+(K+1)+(N+1)+(F+1){}{}{}GANT ME THE POWER TO HAVE BETTER LIFE{}{}{}
Fight on 4:05 AM
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Today felt very excited as there is inter-class for sec1 going on... Being the refree brings me excitment...But my excitement result in finale of LAME...Expected at least that there is 5 teams.. There is 5 teams but only 3 per team... So freaking bored as the refree; pass the refreeing task to Mr He... LOLZ...
So during the so call "eat snake" time, i went to watch the captains' ball inter-class instead... When walking towards the parade scquare i saw my 'niece' fell down...She injured her leg and arm...*Quite a bad injury*...well at least they still continue the game...Quite dramatic as 1E3 had 2 players injured...SADSADSASD...They lost to the other 2 teams; probably because none of them play sports often... When i was about to turn and leave for the court again, my attention was caught by a great intercept by Lydia...Of course that possetion did not last long...In split seconds she did another steal... WOW!!! I was rooted to the by that scene...So i just sit down near a tree and watch the match...Then some really 'funny' gals came along, playing a fool around the soccer field... LOLZ...
After the inter-class i was in the PE room chatting with the teachers while enjoying the 'winter breeze'...Haha...Soon we lose focus in what we did due to the noise produce outside the 'winter' room...To no avail they have to go...
When to HQ after all the sun tanning and played computer games there with ppl like Calvin, Yiwei, Poh Seng, John, Timothy and some other unkown ppl... Quite long did not touch that game due to O levels and Prelim examination but glad to know that i did not lose touch...Haha still a pro in it...ps=(Not as good as before)... Due to playing of computer game, i PS Yi Liang as we said that we will have Sakae Sushi at 3pm...SORRY!!! haha...
{}{}{}Grant me the power to have better life{}{}{}
Fight on 5:47 AM
Monday, October 8, 2007
Everyting today in the morning is fine but as time go by, many shits stuff started to happen....
Firstly got accused innocently by a gal; Secondly so bored and nothing to do after school; Thirdly became the black sheep at 8.38pm... Damn pissed off by everyting today...
O levels are around the corner...why must all this shit happen at this time???
Just a lame question-Does
your parents like the eldest siblings more as compared to the rest???
Sad case that mine family is like that...My parents did not see the actual truth and reprimanded me...Sadly i don't want the quarrel to continue, i just take up all the blame...With this ugly resolution, an idiot is laughing behind me...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is not my day...Hope tml will be a better day...Haiz!!!
{}{}{}{Grant me the power to have better life}{}{}{
Fight on 5:35 AM
